Last year was interesting. It was also intense to say the least—but will go down in history so far as one of my favorites.
Here is what I mean. I’d like to think I know a lot, but last year I often felt clueless. For example? knowledge and a general “knowing” comes to me naturally, but it can be more like a fuzzy math than a concrete science. As spontaneous as I try to be, I still plan to jump with my parachute on. This past year I took risks that typically grown adults with responsibilities don’t take. The doing of this thing has proven to be more powerful, challenging, and rewarding than setting an intention and dreaming about it. The gift of space and time is invaluable. I’ve gained a healthy respect for the risk takers of our world.
I struggled for a bit, that’s just the truth. But when I began to surrender this false sense of control and ego, did I notice my mind begin to settle and knowledge began to come to me. I even began to recall forgotten memories that I had buried deep within me. Admittedly this is a new development.
Surrendering is not anything I’ve mastered to date, but is the most profound experience I have had so far. From the beginning of 2024 to now, I feel as if I have been reborn. I feel like I’m at the beginning of a great many things. Life seems to begin now.
I chuckle to myself because I am reminded of the phrase, “the more you know, the more you don’t know” and I am humbled. Ironically, I thought I had reached the truest form of myself and I’ve come to understand that I’m simply in better position to obtain that ideal.
So much has changed. Even my artwork. The air of discipline and the desire to go beyond remaining a dilettante forever has been solidified within me. My spiritual gifts now take center stage instead of looming in the back. I hope to teach some people how to help themselves in that regard. Knowledge of self brings about an infectious serenity that extends outward to those lucky enough to bask in that life. Last year I discovered that I like all the things I was told not too, and have become quite good at a few of them. Honestly, I love this energy. It feels liberating and truly where I belong. But again, this is only the beginning of “something.” Life looks different when you are eager to learn.
My advice for anyone this year is to surrender. Surrender your plans. Surrender your ideas and travel down the rabbit hole and see where it leads. Take a bet on yourself, there is no way you can lose.
